Worry...

I wish I knew what's up with my mind that I worry so much. I'll have this one teeny thought latch itself to my brain, and then it will totally blow itself out of proportion until it has taken over my whole thought process with this huge horrible worst case scenario. Do these scenarios ever actually come to pass? NO! So why won't my brain just be normal and happy?

Pictures!!!

I'm so happy that I've finally learned how to add pictures to my blog. I know it's not really that complex, but I couldn't do it before, and now I can. Woo-hoo!

I laughed hard...

Okay, so here's the thing. I am a firm believer in the saying "moderation in all things." I'm not a fan of extreme behavior or viewpoints... therefore, groups like PETA (People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals) and many others like them do not find a fan in me. Beyond that, I am highly amused by those who are witty enough to mock them effectively. Call me horrible, but this has got to be the funniest bumper sticker I've seen in ages:



What do you think?

Conference weekend...

I really do love conference weekends. I think they are the best weekends of the year. I love to hear the prophet speak to us and to learn what he and the apostles and leaders have prepared to teach us. It fills my soul with peace. I think, though, that the adversar knows this. He always tries to create some problem in my life everytime conference rolls around. But the Lord knows this, and blesses me with the strength to withstand the difficulties and joy in His word. This weekend has been noo different thus far than the last two (in either regard). I was so happy to hear the announcement of a new apostle. I love and miss Elder Wirthlin, but I'm happy to know that he his again reunited with his dear wife, and also to know that through the inspiration received by our prophet, from the Lord, the work continues to move forward. The words that have been spoken have enlightened my mind and brought peace to my soul, and I look forward to the remaining 3 sessions.

my 2 worlds...

Sometimes I feel like my brain is split between 2 worlds. There's one world, where my friends are, where I'm happy and loving life; and then there's the other, less pleasant one, where my most of my family resides. I'm in MY world, when I'm out with my friends, gone to Church, gone to work, at night when everyone else has gone to bed, or when I'm on my phone with friends. And then suddenly someone will burst through my bedroom door, or maybe I'll simply have to come home from...whatever, and then MY world bursts, much like a bubble, and I am sucked back into their world again. I have to fight, most of the time, to avoid being sucked into that world permenantly, but the fight is worth it. Someday I will be able to spend the vast majority of my time in MY world, and have a home like I've always dreamed of, and the joy I will find there will make the fight to stay out of their world worth every moment of the struggle.

lameness...

Some times I can be so lame. Here's the deal...I recently found out that I like to play soccer. Of course it really bites sometimes, cuz of the fibro, specially if I take i serious hit from the ball. But other that the pain, it's awesome. I dunno how I went 25 years without reaizing I like this sport. The kicker is, I never would have found out I liked it if not for a guy. I figured, you like a guy, you do what he likes, even if you hate it. SO I went into this every week ritual thinking, "this is gonna suck." Now it's like 2 months later, he still shows no real intrest other thatn being a friend, and I'm hooked on playing indoor soccer with my friends. So if nothing else, I can always thank him for broadening my horizons, huh? Strange, the things life will teach you each day...

a new year

Well...it's almost 2009. What happened to 2008? Wasn't it just New Years about a month ago? It seems hard for me, I suppose, because I don't personally have any more milestones accomplished than I did last year at this time. I'm alot closer in some areas (like school), but in others I feel I have gotten no where. In adults, the passage of time is usually marked by milestones. Hence...no milestones = where has the time gone? So I guess that's where I'm at right now...another year and nothing tangible to show for it. That's why I love having lots of friends. While I am plugging along, trying to acheive some goals, they are having milestones right and left and keeping me from living in the past. I have to stay in the present to be a part of their lives and i love what that does for me.

So here's to a new year...new chances, new opportunities, and hopefully some new joys that i can take part in. All in all, I have high hopes for this year. I have learned time and again that I can withstand some of the worst that life can throw at me, and be stronger for it. Isn't that reason to hope? (And besides, the areas of m life in which I have the highest hopes couldn't possibly get any worse than they were in 2008, so they have nowhere to go but up.) ;-)